October 27, 2017
The people who I surround myself with are people who I chose to stay in my life. Truth to be told, there are only around 15 people who I consider friends and only 4 of them are who I consider best friends and these four people are my confidants. Yes, I trust only a handful of people whom I have known for years and who has proved time and time again that they will always have my back and they are also the same people who are not afraid to smack sense back into me. I need people around who are not afraid to tell me when I am wrong because I tend to intimidate others without even trying.
There would be that point in a person’s life when he wakes up one morning and realize, ‘Oh, these are the only people I can trust.’ and then you slowly start to let go of the toxic people in your life. You eventually learn to think before you act and take everything that other people say with a grain of salt. Well, the last one is just me being a cynic. I believe that this kind of realization does not come with age but instead, it comes with the experiences a person has lived through. No, no one betrayed me or anything cliche like that. It’s actually the opposite. Back in high school I did something that affected a lot of people and destroyed their trust in me and that got me into thinking, if I could betray others like I did then, whose to say that others won’t the same to me? My trust issues is no ones fault but mine. On the bright side, I am now more adept at sniffing out lies and pretentious people so that is a definite plus.
But well that’s just me I guess. My decision to keep only a few to trust and frankly even if I can be sociable, being in a large crowd drains the hell out of me. Oh, and there’s also too much drama. It’s also quite amusing listening to a liar talk.
Your pain in the ass,
Disclaimer: The questions that I am using for the ‘Ask Yourself’ will come from the mobile app called Questions Diary which is available in Play Store. I decided to write my answers here because I wanted to share my thoughts to anyone who’ll stumble upon this. This is also a way for me to try to get myself to write everyday.